a brave search of the ultimate reality

2009-10-03T12:56:00.003+03:00

another draft speech:
in the past a cultural frame for performances functioned for some years, so it was possible just to be "creative" inside the frame for some time, without questioning the convention in which you function (theater, ballet, modern dance, dance-theater, conceptual dance..).
now time is accelerating so fast that in every performance is needed to be re-questioned the cultural frame in which is received. to keep up with the evolution of the cultural reading, to actualize the cultural awareness, seems to be the most important thing in this times in a performance, not the issues, the content, etc. if you try to adjust yourself to the present trends you are already in the past. in order to be in your time you have to continuously reinvent the frame, to go all the time in the future in order to can be in the present.

and another one:
dance is dead. for dancers is very difficult to accept that all their training is worthless, so they still try to do movement based performances. the best thing is just to drop it. from a performative point of view is totally uninteresting this way of controlling and disciplining your body, being focused on physicality and virtuosity of it.

2009-09-08T22:01:00.001+03:00

preaching - a performance frame in which is still possible to be pathetic, passionate, exaggerate, enthusiast, sincere and stupid.

2009-09-07T16:50:00.009+03:00

preaching draft:
there is no art or religion that can save you. religion is dead and art is ineffective. there is a huge gap between life and art. we try to symbolize things, to express ourselves but this is a totally old school approach - doesn't work anymore. be direct, if you have something to say just say it, don't hide behind artistic virtuosity, inventing systems and having the sensation of approaching important things. art is not about aesthetic anymore! you cannot bring change if you just entertain the old way of being. we have all kind of cultural constructed systems of approaching performance - certain presences, concentration, judging - "good" or "bad" in function of certain composition, "performance" rules...

also usually there is a need to rehearse something until you are completely prepared, until you can present it despite the audience reaction. to work in order to can avoid the audience confrontation, to create a stable object that stays like a protective wall between you and the audience - a wall that can be more or less transparent, more or less readable or interesting. why to not approach performance like an important meeting - forget about art, just find a way to be there open for everything.

being comfortable and making the things safe kills! escape the frame, kill the convention, liberate, discharge, dissolve the wall, don't think esthetically!!! soul, love, pleasure, human, real, not a technique. not a product to present, something brave and demanding to try. in life we just respond to natural needs and cultural conditioning, and if you take you serious you will continuing to do just that. i want that everybody to become a performer - to do the things with intention and awareness.

2009-08-24T13:53:00.003+03:00

another possible speech
performative language - the god language. back to the soul, body can be a trap!!!
i'm not interested in aesthetic or dance anymore. the body perform much more interesting things than movements, dance or actions - it is the source of emotions, states of mind and presence. let's move the focus on the body - consciousness relation - body as the mean to communicate and work with awareness.

2009-08-10T15:35:00.002+03:00

in vienna from 12 days, writhed this 3 texts:

the "real" can be experienced just in a fictional context because the fiction is the new reality, the ultimate reality. thats why the performative context is more real than ordinary reality - it is from start honest with the fact that everything is artificial.

the body perform much more interesting things than movement, dance or actions - it is the source of emotions, states of mind and presence.

controlling things based on rules, principles and recipes extracted from past experiences produces unidimensionality and dryness. to start from not knowing in order to make space for new, presence, organicity, complexity and freedom.

2009-07-19T18:53:00.001+03:00

approaches of the life-performance relation in time:
"old school" approach - performance based on interpretation, metaphor, symbol... representation for life. condensed, translated life - a way to reinforce, educate and pass the cultural behaviors through representation - to express the content of yourself.
"contemporary" approach - the performative context used like a parallel space for life, like a safe space in which you can experiment and research life and society.
"future" approach - less and less separation between life and performing. performance - a direct manifestation of life, a more free continuation of life, a context where you can expand the life.

2009-07-19T18:13:00.002+03:00

performative - to play with the cultural mind - to stretch the perception, the representation game, the human zone.

2009-07-19T15:54:00.004+03:00

layers:
strategy - to open up, to complexify, to integrate and accept everything, to extend, out of my own zone (to be brave).
method of performing - anarchy - start from 0 - to follow the day.
languages - radicals changes in the way of performing based on body language - behaviors - images.
image - the main representations - the image of images (jesus, virgin mary, adam and eve).
cultural behaviors - states of mind associated behaviors.
bodily - out of coordinations - to dissolute the body schemes, to lose the image.
issue - important, actual, revolutionary - starting from the present situation, personal, political. cultural patterns dissolution.
presence - changing without reason, extreme, inadequate.
context-frame - to change the overall frame, to confuse, to don't know from what point of view to read what you see, to escape the performance frame.

2009-07-14T13:59:00.000+03:00

to burn like a flame and to start a brave search of the ultimate reality, pure love, total freedom, nirvana, zen state, true self, god. to go beyond image and representation, to kill your ego and reborn, to annihilate your mind and free your perception, to be revolutionary and change the world. this kind of goals sounds naive and anachronistic in this period of values dissolution and structural disintegrating. what can be a contemporary approach of them? how we can still approach this life experiences, deconstructing everything and without believing?

2009-07-13T12:27:00.004+03:00

2 ways of being and performing:
one is to go inside, deeper and to activate some states of mind or a body mechanism, to want to arrive somewhere to achieve something - based on a sensitivity for the body language, focused on improving one state, the presence - to manipulate yourself in order to obtain a certain way of being.
second, more open and more relaxed, to take it easy, go with the things, a research more than an ideal to touch, to go with courage in something and after eventually to see what quality this gives in the body - based on a performative language, focused more on discovering and learning - to become a spectator of yourself and to observe, accept and integrate whats happen.

2009-07-06T12:51:00.004+03:00

is very hard to negotiate in the working process and also in my life how to work - how much internet, how much performing, how much conception, how much experience, how much analyze, how much working at presence, how much body work... so i prefer to approach this like how i approach the performative material from a piece, to admit that i don't know what is the best choice for my intention and to accept what appears, to go with courage in everything that came in this void of directions...., and everything that i live during a process can be in the performance. directly - to not try to symbolize or estetiseize.

2009-06-28T16:41:00.003+03:00

what is your behavioral repertoire?
i prefer to say that i work with behaviors, not with movements, not with actions. maybe because when you say behavior you already have a distance, like watching animal planet. also because behavior has a conceptual layer and include the socio-cultural component. but mainly because this perspective helps to move the focus from the mind on what you are doing. escaping the psychological approach in order to make space for a performative thinking.

2009-05-22T16:24:00.000+03:00

human consciousness evolution related with media evolution: tv > internet sites > blogs > facebook > twitter. from a centralized, hierarchic, propaganda like model of dealing with information to a decentralized, anarchic and free one. from the focus on information to focus on relation between informations.

2009-05-18T16:38:00.002+03:00

preparing the speech:
its becoming more and more difficult for humans and society to sustain the actual ways of living. all the politics, principles, rules, values, techniques and models of behavior are from the past and in this period of time acceleration every old response become increasingly quicker inadequate. applying techniques that functioned before instead of searching the present answers for present situations is a way of loosing the contact with reality and a way to stop the novelty and evolution. all the old experiences and informations are valuable if are moved from first plan in the background, allowing to new attitudes, perceptions, movements and behaviors to appear.

2009-05-11T21:17:00.000+03:00

the core of believes and values always come from the past so the project is in a way to get free from the history. the moves and actions to not be just a representation and a direct confirmation of the mind setting (to not be motivated and charged from an ideological construct). practical: to start all the time from 0 and let the movements and actions to appear in the present, from the present even if are "wrong" according to the personal mind setting.

2009-04-20T08:18:00.000+03:00

The core of our "operating system" is made from some education, some inoculated values and ways of being alive, some believes (maybe religious) and some patterns of behavior. What's happen if you messing up your own psychology, your own basic structures of being - if you take a distance and see them just as some arbitrary information which condition all the aspects of the existence? Wat's happen if you start "to play with life", to play with the important and fundamental things? If you transform yourself in a playground for experimenting with truths and conventions? If everything from the self image until to the socio-political context become relative and gets new, unexpected dimensions? This can be the beginning of craziness or the beginning of freedom, or both, but anyway is nothing to loose.

2009-04-03T20:49:00.004+03:00

I have the need to find a recipe for doing things, for performing. The tendency to be in control, to find the rules and the mechanisms that provide the right experience. But for developing is better to have the courage to use the performing situation for jumping over the actual status quo, to allow the possibility that something totally new to happen even if you loose control. If you are on top of an experience you stop to learn. I want to create a situation in which is obvious that i'm not in control.

2009-04-01T19:12:00.003+03:00

It is a pressure to enter in a spectacle logic when you perform (from the audience and from the entire culture of theater and dance performance), if you are aware of this you have a chance to avoid this pressure and to be free to go in new places.

2009-03-23T16:52:00.001+02:00

preparing the speech:
Democracy is changed in corporatecy this means that also the voting process is changed - we vote by buying products. So the most important thing is to be aware what we encouraging by buying certain products. To be aware that ours choices rise or decrease power all the time. This has some undesired consequences - the first consequence is that we created the "monster", we are the "monster". So the change has to come from us and is not a sort of a complicate change of mind is just a simple change in the behavior - our actions to became more aware - to be aware that we always act political.

2009-02-28T18:58:00.004+02:00

J. Krishnamurti: the devil and a friend of his were walking down the street, when they saw ahead of them a man stoop down and pick up something from the ground, look at it, and put it away in his pocket. The friend said to the devil, 'What did that man pick up?' 'He picked up a piece of the truth,' said the devil. 'That is a very bad business for you, then,' said his friend. 'Oh, not at all,' the devil replied, 'I am going to help him organize it.' I maintain that truth is a pathless land, and you cannot approach it by any path whatsoever, by any religion, by any sect. That is my point of view, and I adhere to that absolutely and unconditionally.

'Truth is a pathless land'. Man cannot come to it through any organization, through any creed, through any dogma, priest or ritual, nor through any philosophical knowledge or psychological technique. He has to find it through the mirror of relationship, through the understanding of the contents of his own mind, through observation, and not through intellectual analysis or introspective dissection. Man has built in himself images as a sense of security—religious, political, personal. These manifest as symbols, ideas, beliefs. The burden of these dominates man's thinking, relationships and his daily life. These are the causes of our problems for they divide man from man in every relationship.

2009-02-08T11:39:00.002+02:00

There is a general tendency to speak about a big change that is happen now in the world. What is interesting for me and for this project is the tendency to relate this changes with a transformation in consciousness. The old patterns of perceiving, thinking and behaving seems to be in a crisis which is also expressed and manifested in the world system.

2009-01-29T17:34:00.003+02:00

authorship question:
I don't know if I want anymore to lead a project, to have the decision power. I prefer more and more to be lead by the things and to let the decisions to be tacked by themselves. I'm for anarchy - no hierarchy, no authority, no governance, no rules - decentralized process. The piece is not mine, we are all authors or there is no author.

2009-01-22T16:11:00.004+02:00

A central thing in the religions is the annihilation of your ego, of your "normal" mind in order to make space for something else to appear. Is interesting how this annihilation of judgment seems to be also very linked with the presence and with the performative language.

Another interesting thing is the ascetic drive - to renounce at some desires in order to get more at a superior level. I find correlations with the minimalistic approach - "less is more" and with one of the "rules" of real time composition, to not follow the first impulse (superficial) and to wait for a second wave - a more authentic intuition.

2009-01-16T18:12:00.002+02:00

an idea - to work without speaking at all about the piece.

2008-11-24T18:25:00.003+02:00

After this proposal to perform continuously a month the most difficult thing is to keep performing when the things are serious (a serious discussion for instance). This is a tricky thing because you are more detached when you perform and the things became less serious for you, but anyway, sometimes i feel guilty towards the others and i try to not perform anymore, or I just perform an adequate behaviour. I perform the normality almost all the time.

2008-11-07T00:29:00.008+02:00

Anarchy: from one to 0 - 0 concept, 0 system, 0 rules!
I tried to centralize and integrate everything around this attempt to became sensitive to a body affective-performative language. But this actually it was an artificial solution for a real need to simplify the things - a very reductionist, psychi, interior, analytic, mind focused approach. Now i try to not have at all this rules, principles and focuses, to let all the experiences and knowledge to action indirectly without nothing formalized. No general master plan - the moment will chose the right mental configuration. Just perform and the past experiences and understandings will be active by default. Consequence: you don't have anymore in function of what to judge what you do and this is fantastic.

Life as the main project.
I started by taking the inspiration for dance field from how we take the decisions and how we action in real life and now is time to transfer some knowledge back to the real life. Actually i'm interested to replace the normal attitude with a performative attitude - to perform all the time. Present - to be in what you perform, not in what you have in mind.
A first consequence: a new perspective about what you do, the "normal" behaviors are just one of the many possibles ones - more freedom and not so serious about things.

2008-09-17T18:20:00.000+03:00

It's clear that all my group pieces have a strong continuity. It's obvious also a direction, a tendency to came more close to this affective language which is in the center of my projects. In process in progress it was a kind of ping-pong between a rational language and a body affectivity language. In the process of working at Little more real than necessary the rational language was step by step reduce and it was use only related with the present moment. In haven we questioned the relation between this two languages. In what you see is not what you think we try it to work exclusively with this affective language but an aspect of working was a continuous introspection and auto analyze which annihilated the presence and the affective language. This time I want to avoid this introspection, it's not about research anymore, nor about finding the perfect mechanism.

2008-09-12T13:35:00.000+03:00

There is a profound need for modified states of consciousness: the use of psychedelic drugs, peoples which follow many strange spiritual practices. Also in human history constantly appears the use of body based practices for creating mystical experiences. This seems to be the aim of the religious experiences behind the search for "freedom", "happiness", "immortality", etc.
We intend to explore the bases of this religious experiences starting from two opposite directions: A more exterior approach by using the formal aspects from different religions and mystical practices: aboriginal rituals, Yoga, Thai Chi, Qigong, Christianity, Taoism, Sufism, Shamanism, etc. with the intention to experiment and play with the religious associated behaviors and values. The second direction is to reverse the body - mind relation. At the end of my psychological studies I try it an alternative way of approaching the dreams: instead of translating the image or the symbol to a rational language to became directly sensitive at the images language. Now I propose the same process for the body - instead of using the body as an instrument of expression, by following an approach of translating in the body concepts or meanings, to became directly sensitive to the affective-performative language of the body without the constant need of control, evaluation, judge and rational understanding.